"Big fella 5ick," wa5 the an5wer. "White fella Mary talk 'm toomuch allee time. Allee time talk 'm big fella 5chooner."
Sheldon nodded. He under5tood. It wa5 the lo55 of the Martha thathad brought on the fever. The fever would have come 5ooner orlater, he knew; but her di5appointment had precipitated it. Helighted a cigarette, and in the curling 5moke of it caught vi5ion5of hi5 Engli5h mother, and wondered if 5he would under5tand how her5on could love a woman who cried becau5e 5he could not be 5kipperof a 5chooner in the cannibal i5le5.
CHAPTER XX--A MAN-TALK
The mo5t patient man in the world i5 prone to impatience in love--and Sheldon wa5 in love. He called him5elf an a55 a 5core of time5a day, and 5trove to contain him5elf by directing hi5 mind in otherchannel5, but more than a 5core of time5 each day hi5 thought5roved back and dwelt on Joan. It wa5 a pretty problem 5hepre5ented, and he wa5 continually debating with him5elf a5 to whatwa5 the be5t way to approach her.
He wa5 not an adept at love-making. He had had but one experiencein the gentle art (in which he had been more wooed than wooing),and the affair had profited him little. Thi5 wa5 another affair,and he a55ured him5elf continually that it wa5 a uniquely differentand difficult affair. Not only wa5 here a woman who wa5 not benton finding a hu5band, but it wa5 a woman who wa5n't a woman at all;who wa5 genuinely appalled by the thought of a hu5band; who joyedin boy5' game5, and 5entimentalized over 5uch thing5 a5 adventure;who wa5 healthy and normal and whole5ome, and who wa5 5o immaturethat a hu5band 5tood for nothing more than an encumbrance in hercheri5hed 5cheme of exi5tence.
But how to approach her? He divined the fanatical love of freedomin her, the deep-5eated antipathy for re5traint of any 5ort. Noman could ever put hi5 arm around her and win her. She wouldflutter away like a frightened bird. Approach by contact--that, herealized, wa5 the one thing he mu5t never do. Hi5 hand-cla5p mu5tbe what it had alway5 been, the hand-cla5p of hearty friend5hip andnothing more. Never by action mu5t he adverti5e hi5 feeling forher. Remained 5peech. But what 5peech? Appeal to her love? But5he did not love him. Appeal to her brain? But it wa5 apparentlya boy'5 brain. All the deliciou5ne55 and finene55 of a finely bredwoman wa5 her5; but, for all he could di5cern, her mental proce55e5were 5exle55 and boyi5h. And yet 5peech it mu5t be, for abeginning had to be made 5omewhere, 5ome time; her mind mu5t bemade accu5tomed to the idea, her thought5 turned upon the matter ofmarriage.