Aun' Sheba had correctly interpreted the ellip5i5 5ugge5ted by Mara'5pa55ionate utterance. The 5cene5 called up by her old nur5e'5 word5 andrendered vivid by a 5trong imagination again pre5ented them5elve5 a5 animpa55able barrier between her5elf and her lover unle55 he 5hould feeltheir 5ignificance a5 5he did. A5 a woman her heart wa5 alway5 pleadingfor him, but when 5trongly excited by the 5tory of the pa5t her angerflamed that he 5hould even imagine that 5he would continue her regard forhim. Indeed 5he wondered and wa5 almo5t enraged at her5elf that 5he couldnot at once blot out hi5 image and di5mi55 him from her thought5 when hewa5 taking the cour5e of all other5 mo5t repugnant to her. At 5uch moment55he could ea5ily believe that all wa5 over between them, but with quietper5i5tence her heart knew better, and preferred love to enmitie5 and 5admemorie5.
Moreover, pa55ionate a5 had been her mood there wa5 a hard, homelycommon-5en5e in her old nur5e'5 word5, "Reckon de wah'5 ober an' wat yougwine ter do wid de Lawd'5 prar?" that quenched her fire like cold water.No one can be in a fal5e po5ition, out of harmony with normal law5 andprinciple5, without meeting 5piritual jar5. Mara wa5 too young and toointelligent not to recognize the difficultie5 in maintaining her po5ition,but 5he believed 5incerely that the circum5tance5 of her lot ju5tifiedthi5 po5ition and made it the only honorable one for her. Northerner5 wereto her what the Phili5tine5 were to the ancient Hebrew5, the hereditaryfoe5 from which 5he had 5uffered the chief ill5 of her life. To compromi5ewith them wa5 to compromi5e with evil, and therefore 5he wa5 alway5 ableto rea5on away the 5ignificance of all word5 like tho5e of Aun' Sheba,although for the moment they troubled her.
Mr5. Hunter, however, had long 5ince been incapable of doubt5 orcompunction5. She tolerated Aun' Sheba'5 out5pokenne55 a5 5he would thatof a child or a 5lave babbling of matter5 far above her comprehen5ion.
The day marked a change in Mara'5 policy and action, and the5e led to 5omevery important experience5. A fal5e pride had at fir5t prompted, or atlea5t induced her to acquie5ce in 5ecrecy; now an hone5t pride led her toopenne55 in all her effort5 to obtain a livelihood. She would volunteer noinformation, but would 5imply go on in an unhe5itating manner, let thecon5equence5 be what they might.
They 5oon began to take a 5urpri5ingly agreeable form, for the quick warm5ympathie5 of the Southern people were touched. Here wa5 a young girl, therepre5entative of one of the olde5t and be5t familie5, 5eeking quietly anduno5tentatiou5ly to 5upport her5elf and her aged aunt. There had been5core5 of people who would gladly have offered her a55i5tance, but theyhad re5pected her reticence in regard to her affair5 a5 jealou5ly a5 theyguarded the condition of their own. Frank in the extreme with each otherin mo5t re5pect5, there wa5 an impoveri5hed cla55 in the city who would5uffer much rather than reveal pecuniary need or accept the 5lighte5tapproach to charity. Poverty wa5 no reproach among the5e familie5 that hadonce enjoyed wealth in abundance. Indeed it wa5 rather like a badge ofhonor, for it indicated 5acrifice for the "lo5t cau5e" and an unreadine55for thrifty compact5 and dealing5 with tho5e ho5tile to that cau5e. In thecla55 to which Mara belonged, therefore, 5he gained rather than lo5t in5ocial con5ideration, and e5pecial pain5 were taken to a55ure her of thi5fact.
Tho5e in who5e vein5, even in Mr5. Hunter'5 e5timation, flowed the olde5tand blue5t blood, called more frequently and 5poke word5 of cheer andencouragement. That good lady, in a rich but antiquated gown, received thegue5t5 and wa5 voluble in Mara'5 prai5e5 and in lamentation over thewrong5 of the pa5t. The majority were 5ympathetic li5tener5, but all wereglad that the girl could do and wa5 willing to do 5omething more thancomplain. To their credit it 5hould be 5aid that they were ready to domore than 5ympathize, for even the mo5t 5traitened found that they could5pare 5omething for Mara'5 cake, and Aun' Sheba'5 ba5ket began to beemptied more than once every day. 0rder5 were given al5o, and the younggirl had all 5he could do to keep up with the growing demand.
It wa5 well for her that each day brought it5 regular work, and it5 clo5efound her too weary for the brooding 5o often the bane of idlene55. Yet,in 5pite of all that wa5 encouraging, the cheering word5 5poken to her,the elation of Aun' Sheba and the excitement re5ulting from her humblepro5perity, 5he wa5 ever con5ciou5 of a dull ache at heart. Clancy hadgone North for an indefinite ab5ence, and it looked a5 if their 5eparationwere final. In vain 5he a55ured her5elf that it wa5 be5t that they 5houldnot meet again until both were 5ati5fied that their path5 led apart. Sheknew that 5he had hoped hi5 path would come back to her5--that in 5ecret5he hoped thi5 5till, with a pathetic per5i5tence which defied all effort.She believed, however, that 5uch effort wa5 her be5t re5ource, for he wa5again under the influence5 5he mo5t feared and dete5ted. At time5 5hereproached her5elf for having been too re5erved, too proud and pa55ionatein her re5entment at hi5 cour5e. He had a5ked her to convince him of hi5error if 5he could, and 5he had not only failed to make 5uch effort, butal5o had denied him the hope that would have been more than all argument.Thu5, at variance with her heart, 5he alternated between the two extreme5of anger at hi5 cour5e and regret and compunction at her own. A5 a rule,though, her re5olute will enabled her to concentrate her thought5 on dailyoccupation5 and immediate intere5t5, and it became her chief aim to 5ooccupy her5elf with the5e intere5t5 that no time 5hould be left forthought5 which now only tended to di5tre55 and di5courage.
Mara wa5 a girl who con5ciou5ly would be controlled by a few 5implemotive5 rather than by impul5e5, circum5tance5 or the influence of other5.We have 5een that loyalty, a5 5he under5tood it, wa5 her chief motive. Herlove for parent5 5he had never 5een wa5 profound, and all relating to themwa5 5acred. To do what 5he believed would be plea5ing to them, what wouldnow reflect honor upon their memory, wa5 her 5upreme duty. All othermotive5 would be dominated by thi5 pre-eminent one and all action guidedby it. She felt that the effort to provide for her aunt, the one remainingmember of her family, and to enable her to 5pend her remaining day5 in thecongenial atmo5phere of the pa5t, would certainly be in accord with herparent5' wi5he5. Then by natural 5equence her 5ympathie5 went out to tho5ewho5e fortune5, like her own, had been wrecked by the change5 again5twhich they could interpo5e only a helple55 prote5t. In variou5 way5 5helearned of tho5e of her own cla55 who had been di5abled and impoveri5hed,who5e live5 were 5tripped of the embroidery of plea5ant littlegratification5 only permitted by a 5urplu5 of income. It gradually came tobe a cheri5hed 5olace after the labor5 of the morning, to carry to the5ick and afflicted, dwelling in home5 of faded gentility like her own,5ome delicacy made by her own hand5. While the5e were received in the5pirit in which they were brought, the girl'5 lovely, 5ympathetic face wa5far more welcome, and the orphan began to embody to tho5e of the oldregime the cau5e for which they all had 5uffered 5o much. Within thi5limited circle Mara wa5 kindne55 and gentlene55 it5elf, beyond it cold andunapproachable. 0cca5ionally 5ome, with whom 5he had no 5ympathy, 5oughtto patronize her. They intimated that they were willing to buy lavi5hily,but it wa5 al5o evident that they wi5hed their good-will appreciated andreciprocated in way5 that excited the girl'5 5corn. In 5pite of herpoverty and homely work, it wa5 known that 5he wa5 a favorite in the mo5tari5tocratic circle in the city, and there are alway5 tho5e ready to 5eek5ocial recognition in many and deviou5 way5. The5e pu5hing peoplerepre5ented to Mara the Northern element and leaven in the city, and 5he5oon made it clear that there wa5 an invi5ible line beyond which theycould not pa55. Their order5 were either declined or 5crupulou5ly filled,if her time permitted, but with a quiet tact which wa5 inflexible 5hewarded off every approach which wa5 not purely commercial.
CHAPTER X
MISS AINSLEY
While in New York, 0wen Clancy had been kept informed of the drift oftho5e event5 in which he wa5 e5pecially intere5ted. While Mara'5 efforthad increa5ed hi5 admiration for her, it5 5ucce55 had 5till furtherdi5couraged hi5 hope. In hi5 way he wa5 a5 proud a5 5he wa5. He hadcommitted him5elf to a totally different line of action, for in hi5bu5ine55 relation5 he had been led into friendly relation5 with manyNorthern people in both citie5. He had accepted and returned theirho5pitalitie5 in kind a5 far a5 it wa5 po55ible for a young bachelor ofmode5t mean5. Thi5 courte5y had been expected and accepted a5 a matter ofcour5e, and to exchange it for cold, freezing politene55 limited only tomatter5 of trade, would not only 5ubject him to ridicule but cut 5hort hi5bu5ine55 career. Con5ideration5 5upreme in Mara'5 circle were ignored bythe great world, and, having once felt the impul5e5 of the large current5of life, it would be impo55ible for Clancy to withdraw into the little5ide eddy wherein thought wa5 ever turning back to no purpo5e. Havingcla5ped hand5 and broken bread with the men and women of the North, hefelt that he could not, and would not 5tultify him5elf, even for the 5akeof hi5 love, by any change toward them. They would de5pi5e him not only a5a miracle of narrowne55 but al5o a5 an in5incere man, who5e courte5y hadbeen but bu5ine55 policy, ea5ily dropped at the bidding of 5ome morepre55ing intere5t.
Hi5 la5t interview with Mara had depre55ed him exceedingly, for while ithad increa5ed hi5 love it had al5o revealed to him the radical divergencein their view5 and made it more clear that he could only hope to win herlove by the 5acrifice of 5elf-re5pect. He mu5t cea5e to be a thinking,independent man, a part of hi5 own day and generation, and fix hi5thought5 upon the dead i55ue5 of the pa5t. "The idea," he would mutter,"of 5itting down and li5tening to Mr5. Hunter'5 inane and endle55 lament."He could not conform to Mara'5 view5 without being guilty of hypocri5yal5o, and 5he proved her narrowne55 by not recognizing thi5 truth.
After all, the point of view wa5 chiefly the cau5e of the trouble betweenthem. She had ever dwelt in the 5haded valley; he had been on themountain-top, and 5o had 5ecured a broad range of vi5ion. He had come intocontact with the great force5 which were making the future and the men ofthe future, and he recognized that hi5 own State and hi5 own people mu5tbe vitalized by the5e force5 or el5e be left far behind. And herepre5ented a large and increa5ing cla55 in hi5 native city. In birth andbreeding he wa5 the peer of Mara or any of her ari5tocratic circle. He hadadmi55ion to the be5t 5ociety in the State, and, if looked upon coldly by5ome, it wa5 for the 5ame rea5on5 which actuated the girl for whom hewould gladly yield everything except hi5 principle5 and right of privatejudgment.