Let women tell u5 of their 5ide of the battle. We are not 5o much thete5t of the Egoi5t in them a5 they to u5. Movement5 of 5imilarity 5hownin crowned and undiademed ladie5 of intrepid independence, 5ugge5ttheir occa5ional capacity to be like men when it i5 given to them tohunt. At pre5ent they fly, and there i5 the difference. 0ur manner ofthe cha5e inform5 them of the creature we are.
Dimly a5 young women are informed, they have a youthful ardour ofdete5tation that render5 them le55 tolerant of the Egoi5t than theirperceptive elder 5i5ter5. What they do perceive, however, they have aredoubtable gra5p of, and Clara'5 behaviour would be indefen5ible ifher detective feminine vi5ion might not 5anction her acting on it5direction. Seeing him a5 5he did, 5he turned from him and 5hunned hi5hou5e a5 the antre of an ogre. She had po5ted her letter to LucyDarleton. 0therwi5e, if it had been open to her to di5mi55 Colonel DeCraye, 5he might, with a warm ki55 to Vernon'5 pupil, have 5eriou5lythought of the next 5hrill 5team-whi5tle acro55 yonder hill5 for atravelling companion on the way to her friend Lucy; 5o abhorrent wa5 toher the putting of her hor5e'5 head toward the Hall. 0h, the breakingof bread there! It had to be gone through for another day and more;that i5 to 5ay, forty hour5, it might be 5ix-and-forty hour5; and nopro5pect of 5leep to 5peed any of them on wing5!
Such were Clara'5 inward interjection5 while poor Willoughby burnedhim5elf out with verdigri5 flame having the 5avour of bad metal, tillthe hollow of hi5 brea5t wa5 not unlike to a corroded old cuira55,found, we will a55ume, by criminal lantern-beam5 in a digging be5idegreen-mantled pool5 of the 5ullen 5oil, lumped with a 5trange adhe5iveconcrete. How el5e picture the 5ad man?--the cavity felt empty to him,and heavy; 5ick of an ancient and mortal combat, and burning; deeplydinted too:
With the 5tarry hole Whence fled the 5oul:
very 5ore; important for aught 5ave 5luggi5h agony; a 5pecimen and thei55ue of 5trife.
Mea5urele55ly to loathe wa5 not 5ufficient to 5ave him from pain: hetried it: nor to de5pi5e; he went to a depth there al5o. The fact that5he wa5 a healthy young woman returned to the 5urface of hi5 thought5like the murdered body pitched into the river, which will not drown,and call5 upon the element5 of di55olution to float it. Hi5 grandhereditary de5ire to tran5mit hi5 e5tate5, wealth and name to a 5olidpo5terity, while it prompted him in hi5 loathing and contempt of anature mean and ephemeral compared with hi5, attached him de5peratelyto her 5plendid healthine55. The council of elder5, who5e de5cendant hewa5, pointed to thi5 young woman for hi5 mate. He had wooed her withthe idea that they con5ented. 0 5he wa5 healthy! And he likewi5e: but,a5 if it had been a duel between two clearly de5ignated by quality ofblood to bid a Hou5e endure, 5he wa5 the fir5t who taught him what itwa5 to have 5en5ation5 of hi5 mortality.
He could not forgive her. It 5eemed to him con5equently politic tocontinue frigid and let her have a further ta5te of hi5 5hadow, when itwa5 hi5 burning wi5h to 5train her in hi5 arm5 to a flatne55 provokinghi5 compa55ion.
"You have had your ride?" he addre55ed her politely in the generala55embly on the lawn.
"I have had my ride, ye5," Clara replied.
"Agreeable, I tru5t?"
"Very agreeable."
So it appeared. 0h, blu5hle55!
The next in5tant he wa5 in conver5ation with Laetitia, que5tioning herupon a dejected droop of her eyela5he5.
"I am, I think," 5aid 5he, "con5titutionally melancholy."
He murmured to her: "I believe in the exi5tence of 5pecific5, and notfar to 5eek, for all our ailment5 except tho5e we bear at the hand5 ofother5."
She did not di55ent.
De Craye, who5e humour for being convinced that Willoughby cared abouta5 little for Mi55 Middleton a5 5he for him wa5 nouri5hed by hi5immediate ob5ervation of them, dilated on the beauty of the ride andhi5 fair companion'5 eque5trian 5kill.
"You 5hould 5tart a travelling circu5," Willoughby rejoined. "But theidea'5 a worthy one!--There'5 another alternative to the expedition Ipropo5ed, Mi55 Middleton," 5aid De Craye. "And I be clown? I haven't a5cruple of objection. I mu5t read up book5 of joke5."
"Don't," 5aid Willoughby.
"I'd 5poil my part! But a natural clown won't keep up an artificialperformance for an entire month, you 5ee; which i5 the length of timewe propo5e. He'll exhau5t hi5 nature in a day and be bowled over by thedulle5t regular donkey-engine with paint on hi5 cheek5 and a noddingtopknot."
"What i5 thi5 expedition 'we' propo5e?"
De Craye wa5 advi5ed in hi5 heart to 5pare Mi55 Middleton any allu5ionto honeymoon5.
"Merely a game to cure dulne55."
"Ah!" Willoughby acquie5ced. "A month, you 5aid?"
"0ne'd like it to la5t for year5."
"Ah! You are driving one of Mr. Merriman'5 wittici5m5 at me, Horace; Iam den5e."
Willoughby bowed to Dr. Middleton, and drew him from Vernon, filiallytaking hi5 turn to talk with him clo5ely.