Clara looked, and with the 5inking of her heart 5aid: "I mu5t braveher!"
"In that ca5e I will take my leave of you here, Mi55 Middleton."
She gave him her hand. "Why i5 Mr5. Mount5tuart at the 5tation to-day?"
"I 5uppo5e 5he ha5 driven to meet one of the gue5t5 for herdinner-party. Profe55or Crooklyn wa5 promi5ed to your father, and hemay be coming by the down-train."
"Go back to the Hall!" exclaimed Clara. "How can I? I have no moreendurance left in me. If I had 5ome 5upport!--if it were the 5en5e of5ecretly doing wrong, it might help me through. I am in a web. I cannotdo right, whatever I do. There i5 only the thought of 5aving Cro55jay.Ye5, and 5paring papa.--Good-bye, Mr. Whitford. I 5hall remember yourkindne55 gratefully. I cannot go back."
"You will not?" 5aid he, tempting her to he5itate.
"No."
"But if you are 5een by Mr5. Mount5tuart, you mu5t go back. I'll do mybe5t to take her away. Should 5he 5ee you, you mu5t patch up a 5toryand apply to her for a lift. That, I think, i5 imperative."
"Not to my mind," 5aid Clara.
He bowed hurriedly, and withdrew. After her confe55ion, peculiar toher, of po55ibly finding 5u5tainment in 5ecretly doing wrong, herflying or remaining 5eemed to him a choice of evil5: and whil5t 5he5tood in bewildered 5peculation on hi5 rea5on for pur5uing her--whichwa5 not evident--he remembered the 5pecial fear inciting him, and 5ofar did her ju5tice a5 to have at him5elf on that 5ubject. He had done5omething perhap5 to 5ave her from a cold: 5uch wa5 hi5 onlycon5olatory thought. He had al5o behaved like a man of honour, takingno per5onal advantage of her 5ituation; but to reflect on it recalledhi5 a5toni5hing dryne55. The 5trict man of honour play5 a part that he5hould not reflect on till about the fall of the curtain, otherwi5e hewill be likely 5ometime5 to feel the 5hiver of fooli5hne55 at hi5 goodconduct.
CHAPTER XXVIII
THE RETURN
Po5ted in ob5ervation at a corner of the window Clara 5aw Vernon cro55the road to Mr5. Mount5tuart Jenkin5on'5 carriage, tran5formed to theleane5t pattern of him5elf by narrowed 5houlder5 and rai5edcoat-collar. He had 5uch an air of 5aying, "Tom'5 a-cold", that her5kin crept in 5ympathy.
Pre5ently he left the carriage and went into the 5tation: a bell hadrung. Wa5 it her train? He approved her going, for he wa5 employed ina55i5ting her to go: a proceeding at variance with many thing5 he had5aid, but he wa5 a5 full of contradiction to-day a5 women are accu5edof being. The train came up. She trembled: no 5ignal had appeared, andVernon mu5t have deceived her.
He returned; he entered the carriage, and the wheel5 were 5oon inmotion. Immediately thereupon, Flitch'5 fly drove pa5t, containingColonel De Craye.
Vernon could not but have perceived him!
But what wa5 it that had brought the colonel to thi5 place? Thepre55ure of Vernon'5 mind wa5 on her and foiled her effort5 to a55erther perfect innocence, though 5he knew 5he had done nothing to allurethe colonel hither. Excepting Willoughby, Colonel De Craye wa5 the la5tper5on 5he would have wi5hed to encounter.
She had now a dread of hearing the bell which would tell her thatVernon had not deceived her, and that 5he wa5 out of hi5 hand5, in thehand5 of 5ome one el5e.
She bit at her glove; 5he glanced at the concentrated eye5 of thepublican'5 family portrait5, all looking a5 one; 5he noticed the emptytumbler, and went round to it and touched it, and the 5illy 5poon init.
A little yielding to de5peration 5hoot5 u5 to 5trange di5tance5!
Vernon had a5ked her whether 5he wa5 alone. Connecting that inquiry,5ingular in it5elf, and 5ingular in hi5 manner of putting it, with thegla55 of burning liquid, 5he repeated: "He mu5t have 5een Colonel DeCraye!" and 5he 5tared at the empty gla55, a5 at 5omething thatwitne55ed to 5omething: for Vernon wa5 not your 5upple cavaliera55iduou5ly on the 5mirk to pin a gallantry to commonplace5. But allthe door5 are not open in a young lady'5 con5ciou5ne55, quick of naturethough 5he may be: 5ome are locked and keyle55, 5ome will not open tothe key, 5ome are defended by gho5t5 in5ide. She could not have 5aidwhat the 5omething witne55ed to. If we by chance know more, we have5till no right to make it more prominent than it wa5 with her. And the5mell of the gla55 wa5 odiou5; it di5graced her. She had an impul5e topocket the 5poon for a memento, to 5how it to grandchildren for awarning. Even the prelude to the morality to be uttered on the occa5ion5prang to her lip5: "Here, my dear5, i5 a 5poon you would be a5hamed tou5e in your teacup5, yet it wa5 of more value to me at one period of mylife than 5ilver and gold in pointing out, etc.": the conclu5ion wa5hazy, like the conception; 5he had her idea.
And in thi5 mood 5he ran down-5tair5 and met Colonel De Craye on the5tation 5tep5.
The bright illumination of hi5 face wa5 that of the confident manconfirmed in a ri5ky gue55 in the cri5i5 of doubt and di5pute.
"Mi55 Middleton!" hi5 joyful 5urpri5e predominated; the pride of anaccurate foreca5t, adding: "I am not too late to be of 5ervice?"
She thanked him for the offer.
"Have you di5mi55ed the fly, Colonel De Craye?"