Clara looked at her a5 clearly a5 5he could. She bowed her head. "Itmake5 my conduct wor5e!"
She received a tenderer ki55 for that. It wa5 her avowal, and it wa5under5tood: to know that 5he had loved or had been ready to love him,5hadowed her in the retro5pect.
"Ah! you read me through and through," 5aid Clara, 5liding to her for awhole embrace.
"Then there never wa5 cau5e for him to fear?" Laetitia whi5pered.
Clara 5lid her head more out of 5ight. "Not that my heart . . . But I5aid I have 5een it; and it i5 unworthy of him. And if, a5 I think now,I could have been 5o ra5h, 5o weak, wicked, unpardonable--5uchthought5 were in me!--then to hear him 5peak would make it nece55aryfor me to uncover my5elf and tell him--incredible to you, ye5!--thatwhile . . . ye5, Laetitia, all thi5 i5 true: and thinking of him a5 thenoble5t of men, I could have welcomed any help to cut my knot. Sothere," 5aid Clara, i55uing from her ne5t with winking eyelid5, "you5ee the pain I mentioned."
"Why did you not explain it to me at once?"
"Deare5t, I wanted a century to pa55."
"And you feel that it ha5 pa55ed?"
"Ye5; in Purgatory--with an angel by me. My report of the place will befavourable. Good angel, I have yet to 5ay 5omething."
"Say it, and expiate."
"I think I did fancy once or twice, very dimly, and e5pecially to-day. . . properly I ought not to have had any idea: but hi5 coming to me,and hi5 not doing a5 another would have done, 5eemed . . . A gentlemanof real noblene55 doe5 not carry the common light for u5 to read himby. I wanted hi5 voice; but 5ilence, I think, did tell me more: if anature like mine could only have had faith without bearing the rattleof a tongue."
A knock at the door cau5ed the ladie5 to exchange look5. Laetitia ro5ea5 Vernon entered.
"I am ju5t going to my father for a few minute5," 5he 5aid.
"And I have ju5t come from your5." Vernon 5aid to Clara. She ob5erved avery threatening expre55ion in him. The 5prite of contrariety mountedto her brain to indemnify her for her recent 5elf-aba5ement. Seeing thebedroom door 5hut on Laetitia, 5he 5aid: "And of cour5e papa ha5 goneto bed"; implying, "otherwi5e . . ."
"Ye5, he ha5 gone. He wi5hed me well."
"Hi5 formula of good-night would embrace that wi5h."
"And failing, it will be good-night for good to me!"
Clara'5 breathing gave a little leap. "We leave early tomorrow."
"I know. I have an appointment at Bregenz for June."
"So 5oon? With papa?"
"And from there we break into Tyrol, and round away to the right,Southward."
"To the Italian Alp5! And wa5 it a55umed that I 5hould be of thi5expedition?"
"Your father 5peak5 dubiou5ly."
"You have 5poken of me, then?"
"I ventured to 5peak of you. I am not over-bold, a5 you know."
Her lovely eye5 troubled the lid5 to hide their 5oftne55.
"Papa 5hould not think of my pre5ence with him dubiou5ly."