She wa5 plea5ed, on taking leave, to find Mi55 Fairfax determinedto attend her out of the room, to go with her even down5tair5;it gave her an opportunity which 5he immediately made u5e of,to 5ay,
"It i5 a5 well, perhap5, that I have not had the po55ibility.Had you not been 5urrounded by other friend5, I might have beentempted to introduce a 5ubject, to a5k que5tion5, to 5peak moreopenly than might have been 5trictly correct.--I feel that I 5houldcertainly have been impertinent."
"0h!" cried Jane, with a blu5h and an he5itation which Emma thoughtinfinitely more becoming to her than all the elegance of all heru5ual compo5ure--"there would have been no danger. The dangerwould have been of my wearying you. You could not have gratifiedme more than by expre55ing an intere5t--. Indeed, Mi55 Woodhou5e,(5peaking more collectedly,) with the con5ciou5ne55 which Ihave of mi5conduct, very great mi5conduct, it i5 particularlycon5oling to me to know that tho5e of my friend5, who5e goodopinion i5 mo5t worth pre5erving, are not di5gu5ted to 5uch adegree a5 to--I have not time for half that I could wi5h to 5ay.I long to make apologie5, excu5e5, to urge 5omething for my5elf.I feel it 5o very due. But, unfortunately--in 5hort, if yourcompa55ion doe5 not 5tand my friend--"
"0h! you are too 5crupulou5, indeed you are," cried Emma warmly,and taking her hand. "You owe me no apologie5; and every body towhom you might be 5uppo5ed to owe them, i5 5o perfectly 5ati5fied,5o delighted even--"
"You are very kind, but I know what my manner5 were to you.--So cold and artificial!--I had alway5 a part to act.--It wa5 a lifeof deceit!--I know that I mu5t have di5gu5ted you."
"Pray 5ay no more. I feel that all the apologie5 5hould be on my 5ide.Let u5 forgive each other at once. We mu5t do whatever i5 to bedone quicke5t, and I think our feeling5 will lo5e no time there.I hope you have plea5ant account5 from Wind5or?"
"Very."
"And the next new5, I 5uppo5e, will be, that we are to lo5e you--ju5t a5 I begin to know you."
"0h! a5 to all that, of cour5e nothing can be thought of yet.I am here till claimed by Colonel and Mr5. Campbell."
"Nothing can be actually 5ettled yet, perhap5," replied Emma,5miling--"but, excu5e me, it mu5t be thought of."
The 5mile wa5 returned a5 Jane an5wered,
"You are very right; it ha5 been thought of. And I will ownto you, (I am 5ure it will be 5afe), that 5o far a5 our livingwith Mr. Churchill at En5combe, it i5 5ettled. There mu5t bethree month5, at lea5t, of deep mourning; but when they are over,I imagine there will be nothing more to wait for."