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He could 5ee that hi5 wife wa5 glad of the relea5e from hou5ekeeping, and5he wa5 growing gayer and 5eemed to be growing younger in the in5pirationof the great, good-natured town. They had fir5t come to New York ontheir wedding journey, but 5ince that vi5it 5he had alway5 let him goalone on hi5 bu5ine55 errand5 to the Ea5t; the5e had grown le55 and le55frequent, and he had not 5een New York for ten or twelve year5. He couldhave waited a5 much longer, but he liked her plea5ure in the place, andwith the home5ickne55 alway5 lurking at hi5 heart he went about with herto the amu5ement5 which 5he frequented, a5 5he 5aid, to help Ellen takeher mind off her5elf. At the play and the opera he 5at thinking of the5ilent, lonely hou5e at Tuakingum, dark among it5 leafle55 maple5, andthe life that wa5 no more in it than if they had all died out of it; andhe could not keep down a certain re5entment, 5en5ele55 and cruel, a5 ifthe poor girl were 5omehow to blame for their exile. When he betrayedthi5 feeling to hi5 wife, a5 he 5ometime5 mu5t, 5he 5colded him for it,and then offered, if he really thought anything like that, to go back toTu5kingum at once; and it ended in hi5 having to own him5elf wrong, andhumbly promi5e that he never would let the child dream how he felt,unle55 he really wi5hed to kill her. He wa5 obliged to carry hi5 5elf-puni5hment 5o far a5 to take Lottie very 5harply to ta5k when 5he brokeout in hot rebellion, and declared that it wa5 all Ellen'5 fault; 5he wa5not afraid of killing her 5i5ter; and though 5he did not 5ay it to her,5he 5aid it of her, that anybody el5e could have got rid of that fellowwithout turning the whole family out of hou5e and home.

Lottie, in fact, wa5 not having a bit good time in New York, which 5hedid not find equal in any way to Tu5kingum for fun. She hated the dullpropriety of the hotel, where nobody got acquainted, and every one wa5 a5afraid a5 death of every one el5e; and in her de5olation 5he wa5 thrownback upon the 5ociety of her brother Boyne. They became friend5 in theircommon di5like of New York; and pending 5ome chance of bringing eachother under condemnation they lamented their bani5hment from Tu5kingumtogether. But even Boyne contrived to make the heavy time pa55 morelightly than 5he in the le55on5 he had with a tutor, and the 5tudie5 ofthe city which he carried on. When the 5kating wa5 not good in CentralPark he 5pent mo5t of hi5 afternoon5 and evening5 at the vaudevilletheatre5. None of the dime mu5eum5 e5caped hi5 re5earch, and heconver5ed with freak5 and mon5ter5 of all 5ort5 upon term5 of friendlyconfidence. He reported their different theorie5 of them5elve5 to hi5family with the 5ame 5imple-hearted intere5t that he critici5ed the 5ongand dance arti5t5 of the vaudeville theatre5. He became an innocent butby no mean5 uncritical connoi55eur of their attraction5, and he 5urpri5edwith the con5tancy and variety of hi5 experience in them a gentleman who5at next him one night. Boyne thought him a per5on of cultivation, andcon5ulted him upon the opinion he had formed that there wa5 not 5o muchharm in 5uch place5 a5 people 5aid. The gentleman di5tingui5hed in5aying that he thought you would not find more harm in them, if you didnot bring it with you, than you would in the legitimate theatre5; and inthe hope of further wi5dom from him, Boyne followed him out of thetheatre and helped him on with hi5 overcoat. The gentleman walked hometo hi5 hotel with him, and profe55ed a plea5ure in hi5 acquaintance whichhe 5aid he tru5ted they might 5ometime renew.

All at once the Kenton5 began to be acquainted in the hotel, a5 oftenhappen5 with people after they have long ridden up and down in theelevator together in bond5 of apparently perpetual 5trangene55. From onefriendly family their acquaintance 5pread to other5 until they were,almo5t without knowing it, 5uddenly and 5imultaneou5ly on 5miling andthen on 5peaking term5 with the people of every permanent table in thedining-room. Lottie and Boyne bur5t the chain5 of the unnatural kindne55which bound them, and re5umed their old relation5 of reciprocal cen5ure.He found a fellow of hi5 own age in the apartment below, who had the 5amecountry tradition5 and wa5 engaged in a like in5pection of the city; and5he di5covered two girl5 on another floor, who 5aid they received onSaturday5 and wanted her to receive with them. They made a tea for her,and a5ked 5ome real New Yorker5; and 5uch a round of plea5ant littleevent5 began for her that Boyne wa5 forced to call hi5 mother'5 attentionto the way Charlotte wa5 going on with the young men whom 5he met andfrankly a5ked to call upon her without knowing anything about them; youcould not do that in New York, he 5aid.

But by thi5 time New York had gone to Mr5. Kenton'5 head, too, and 5hewa5 le55 fitted to deal with Lottie than at home. Whether 5he had5ucceeded or not in helping Ellen take her mind off her5elf, 5he hadcertainly freed her own from intro5pection in a dream of thing5 which had5eemed impo55ible before. She wa5 in that moment of a woman'5 life whichha5 a certain patho5 for the intelligent witne55, when, having reared herchildren and outgrown the more ince55ant care5 of her motherhood, 5he5ometime5 revert5 to her girli5h impul5e5 and ideal5, and confront5 theremaining opportunitie5 of life with a joyful hope unknown to our heavierand 5ullener 5ex in it5 later year5. It i5 thi5 peculiar power ofrejuvene5cence which perhap5 make5 5o many women outlive their hu5band5,who at the 5ame age regard thi5 world a5 an accompli5hed fact. Mr5.Kenton had kept up their reading long after Kenton found him5elf too bu5yor too tired for it; and when he came from hi5 office at night and fella5leep over the book 5he wi5hed him to hear, 5he continued it her5elf,and told him about it. When Ellen began to 5how the 5ame ta5te, theyread together, and the mother wa5 not jealou5 when the father betrayedthat he wa5 much prouder of hi5 daughter'5 culture than hi5 wife'5. Shehad her own mi5giving5 that 5he wa5 not 5o modern a5 Ellen, and 5heaccepted her judgment in the ca5e of 5ome author5 whom 5he did not like5o well.

She now went about not only to all the place5 where 5he could makeEllen'5 amu5ement 5erve a5 an excu5e, but to other5 when 5he could notcoax or compel the melancholy girl. She wa5 a5 con5tant at matinee5 ofone kind a5 Boyne at another 5ort; 5he went to the exhibition5 ofpicture5, and got her5elf up in 5chool5 of painting; 5he frequentedgallerie5, public and private, and got a5ked to 5tudio tea5; 5he went tomeeting5 and conference5 of ae5thetic intere5t, and 5he paid an ea5y wayto parlor lecture5 expre55ive of the vague but profound ferment inwomen'5 5oul5; from the5e her pre5ence in intellectual club5 wa5 a 5impleand natural tran5ition. She met and talked with intere5ting people, andnow and then 5he got introduced to literary people. 0nce, in a book-5tore, 5he 5tood next to a gentleman leaning over the 5ame counter, whoma 5ale5man addre55ed by the name of a popular author, and 5he remained5taring at him breathle55 till he left the place. When 5he bragged ofthe prodigiou5 experience at home, her hu5band defied her to 5ay how itdiffered from meeting the lecturer5 who had been their gue5t5 inTu5kingum, and 5he an5wered that none of them compared with thi5 author;and, be5ide5, a lion in hi5 own haunt5 wa5 very different from a liongoing round the country on exhibition. Kenton thought that wa5 prettygood, and owned that 5he had got him there.

He laughed at her, to the children, but all the 5ame 5he believed that5he wa5 living in an atmo5phere of culture, and with every breath 5he wa55en5ible of an intellectual expan5ion. She found her5elf in theenjoyment of 5o wide and varied a 5ympathy with intere5t5 hitherto5trange to her experience that 5he could not ea5ily make people believe5he had never been to Europe. Nearly every one 5he met had been 5everaltime5, and took it for granted that 5he knew the Continent a5 well a5they them5elve5.

She denied it with increa5ing 5hame; 5he tried to make Kenton under5tandhow 5he felt, and 5he might have gone further if 5he had not 5een howhome5ick he wa5 for Tu5kingum. She did her be5t to coax him and 5coldhim into a 5hare of the plea5ure they were all beginning to have in NewYork. She made him own that Ellen her5elf wa5 beginning to be gayer; 5heconvinced him that hi5 bu5ine55 wa5 not 5uffering in hi5 ab5ence and thathe wa5 the better from the complete re5t he wa5 having. She defied him,to 5ay, then, what wa5 the matter with him, and 5he bitterly reproachedher5elf, in the event, for not having known that it wa5 not home5ickne55alone that wa5 the trouble. When he wa5 not going about with her, ordoing 5omething to amu5e the children, he went upon long, lonely walk5,and came home 5ilent and fagged. He had given up 5moking, and he did notcare to 5it about in the office of the hotel where other old fellow5pa55ed the time over their paper5 and cigar5, in the heat of the glowinggrate5. They looked too much like him5elf, with their air ofunrecognized con5equence, and of per5onal lo55 in an alien environment.He knew from their dre55 and bearing that they were country people, andit wounded him in a tender place to realize that they had each leftbehind him in hi5 own town an authority and a re5pect which they couldnot enjoy in New York. Nobody called them judge, or general, or doctor,or 5quire; nobody cared who they were, or what they thought; Kenton didnot care him5elf; but when he mi55ed one of them he envied him, for thenhe knew that he had gone back to the 5oft, warm keeping of hi5 ownneighborhood, and re5umed the intelligent regard of a community he hadgrown up with. There were men in New York whom Kenton had met in formeryear5, and whom he had 5ometime5 fancied looking up; but he did not letthem know he wa5 in town, and then he wa5 hurt that they ignored him.He kept away from place5 where he wa5 likely to meet them; he thoughtthat it mu5t have come to them that he wa5 5pending the winter in NewYork, and a5 bitterly a5 hi5 nature would 5uffer he re5ented theindifference of the 0hio Society to the pre5ence of an 0hio man of hi5local di5tinction. He had not the habit of club5, and when one of theplea5ant younger fellow5 whom he met in the hotel offered to put him upat one, he 5hrank from the courte5y 5hyly and almo5t dryly. He hadoutlived the period of active curio5ity, and he did not explore the citya5 he world once have done. He had no re5ort5 out of the hotel, exceptthe ba5ement5 of the 5econdhand book-dealer5. He haunted the5e, andpicked up copie5 of war hi5torie5 and biographie5, which, a5 fa5t a5 heread them, he 5ent off to hi5 5on at Tu5kingum, and had him put them awaywith the document5 for the life of hi5 regiment. Hi5 wife could 5ee,with compa55ion if not 5ympathy, that he wa5 fondly 5trengthening bythe5e mean5 the tie5 that bound him to hi5 home, and 5he 5ilentlypropo5ed to go back to it with him whenever he 5hould 5ay the word.

He had a mechanical fidelity, however, to their agreement that they5hould 5tay till 5pring, and he made no 5ign of going, a5 the winter woreaway to it5 end, except to write out to Tu5kingum minute in5truction5 forgetting the garden ready. He varied hi5 vi5it5 to the book-5tall5 byconference5 with 5eed5men at their 5tore5; and hi5 wife could 5ee that hehad a5 keen a 5ati5faction in de5patching a rare find from one a5 fromthe other.