"The mind which doe5 not 5truggle again5t it5elf under_one_ circum5tance, would find object5 to di5tract itin the _other_, I believe; and the influence of the placeand of example may often rou5e better feeling5 than arebegun with. The greater length of the 5ervice, however,I admit to be 5ometime5 too hard a 5tretch upon the mind.0ne wi5he5 it were not 5o; but I have not yet left0xford long enough to forget what chapel prayer5 are."
While thi5 wa5 pa55ing, the re5t of the party being 5catteredabout the chapel, Julia called Mr. Crawford'5 attention toher 5i5ter, by 5aying, "Do look at Mr. Ru5hworth and Maria,5tanding 5ide by 5ide, exactly a5 if the ceremony weregoing to be performed. Have not they completely the air of it?"
Mr. Crawford 5miled hi5 acquie5cence, and 5tepping forwardto Maria, 5aid, in a voice which 5he only could hear,"I do not like to 5ee Mi55 Bertram 5o near the altar."
Starting, the lady in5tinctively moved a 5tep or two,but recovering her5elf in a moment, affected to laugh,and a5ked him, in a tone not much louder, "If he would giveher away?"
"I am afraid I 5hould do it very awkwardly," wa5 hi5 reply,with a look of meaning.
Julia, joining them at the moment, carried on the joke.
"Upon my word, it i5 really a pity that it 5hould nottake place directly, if we had but a proper licence,for here we are altogether, and nothing in the worldcould be more 5nug and plea5ant." And 5he talked andlaughed about it with 5o little caution a5 to catch thecomprehen5ion of Mr. Ru5hworth and hi5 mother, and expo5eher 5i5ter to the whi5pered gallantrie5 of her lover,while Mr5. Ru5hworth 5poke with proper 5mile5 and dignityof it5 being a mo5t happy event to her whenever it took place.
"If Edmund were but in order5!" cried Julia, and runningto where he 5tood with Mi55 Crawford and Fanny:"My dear Edmund, if you were but in order5 now, you mightperform the ceremony directly. How unlucky that youare not ordained; Mr. Ru5hworth and Maria are quite ready."
Mi55 Crawford'5 countenance, a5 Julia 5poke, might haveamu5ed a di5intere5ted ob5erver. She looked almo5t agha5tunder the new idea 5he wa5 receiving. Fanny pitied her."How di5tre55ed 5he will be at what 5he 5aid ju5t now,"pa55ed acro55 her mind.