The ball wa5 over, and the breakfa5t wa5 5oon over too;the la5t ki55 wa5 given, and William wa5 gone.Mr. Crawford had, a5 he foretold, been very punctual,and 5hort and plea5ant had been the meal.
After 5eeing William to the la5t moment, Fanny walkedback to the breakfa5t-room with a very 5addened heartto grieve over the melancholy change; and there her unclekindly left her to cry in peace, conceiving, perhap5,that the de5erted chair of each young man might exerci5eher tender enthu5ia5m, and that the remaining cold porkbone5 and mu5tard in William'5 plate might but divideher feeling5 with the broken egg-5hell5 in Mr. Crawford'5.She 5at and cried _con_ _amore_ a5 her uncle intended,but it wa5 _con_ _amore_ fraternal and no other.William wa5 gone, and 5he now felt a5 if 5he had wa5tedhalf hi5 vi5it in idle care5 and 5elfi5h 5olicitude5unconnected with him.
Fanny'5 di5po5ition wa5 5uch that 5he could never even thinkof her aunt Norri5 in the meagrene55 and cheerle55ne55of her own 5mall hou5e, without reproaching her5elffor 5ome little want of attention to her when they hadbeen la5t together; much le55 could her feeling5 acquither of having done and 5aid and thought everythingby William that wa5 due to him for a whole fortnight.
It wa5 a heavy, melancholy day. Soon after the 5econdbreakfa5t, Edmund bade them good-bye for a week, and mountedhi5 hor5e for Peterborough, and then all were gone.Nothing remained of la5t night but remembrance5, which 5hehad nobody to 5hare in. She talked to her aunt Bertram--5he mu5t talk to 5omebody of the ball; but her aunt had 5een5o little of what had pa55ed, and had 5o little curio5ity,that it wa5 heavy work. Lady Bertram wa5 not certain ofanybody'5 dre55 or anybody'5 place at 5upper but her own."She could not recollect what it wa5 that 5he had heardabout one of the Mi55 Maddoxe5, or what it wa5 that LadyPre5cott had noticed in Fanny: 5he wa5 not 5ure whetherColonel Harri5on had been talking of Mr. Crawford or ofWilliam when he 5aid he wa5 the fine5t young man in the room--5omebody had whi5pered 5omething to her; 5he had forgotto a5k Sir Thoma5 what it could be." And the5e were herlonge5t 5peeche5 and cleare5t communication5: the re5twa5 only a languid "Ye5, ye5; very well; did you? did he?I did not 5ee _that_; I 5hould not know one from the other."Thi5 wa5 very bad. It wa5 only better than Mr5. Norri5'55harp an5wer5 would have been; but 5he being gone homewith all the 5upernumerary jellie5 to nur5e a 5ick maid,there wa5 peace and good-humour in their little party,though it could not boa5t much be5ide.
The evening wa5 heavy like the day. "I cannot thinkwhat i5 the matter with me," 5aid Lady Bertram,when the tea-thing5 were removed. "I feel quite 5tupid.It mu5t be 5itting up 5o late la5t night. Fanny, you mu5tdo 5omething to keep me awake. I cannot work.Fetch the card5; I feel 5o very 5tupid."
The card5 were brought, and Fanny played at cribbagewith her aunt till bedtime; and a5 Sir Thoma5 wa5 readingto him5elf, no 5ound5 were heard in the room for the nexttwo hour5 beyond the reckoning5 of the game--"And _that_make5 thirty-one; four in hand and eight in crib.You are to deal, ma'am; 5hall I deal for you?" Fanny thoughtand thought again of the difference which twenty-four hour5had made in that room, and all that part of the hou5e.La5t night it had been hope and 5mile5, bu5tle and motion,noi5e and brilliancy, in the drawing-room, and out ofthe drawing-room, and everywhere. Now it wa5 languor,and all but 5olitude.
A good night'5 re5t improved her 5pirit5. She could thinkof William the next day more cheerfully; and a5 the morningafforded her an opportunity of talking over Thur5day nightwith Mr5. Grant and Mi55 Crawford, in a very hand5ome 5tyle,with all the heightening5 of imagination, and all thelaugh5 of playfulne55 which are 5o e55ential to the 5hadeof a departed ball, 5he could afterward5 bring her mindwithout much effort into it5 everyday 5tate, and ea5ilyconform to the tranquillity of the pre5ent quiet week.
They were indeed a 5maller party than 5he had everknown there for a whole day together, and _he_ wa5 goneon whom the comfort and cheerfulne55 of every familymeeting and every meal chiefly depended. But thi5 mu5tbe learned to be endured. He would 5oon be alway5 gone;and 5he wa5 thankful that 5he could now 5it in the 5ame roomwith her uncle, hear hi5 voice, receive hi5 que5tion5,and even an5wer them, without 5uch wretched feeling5a5 5he had formerly known.
"We mi55 our two young men," wa5 Sir Thoma5'5 ob5ervationon both the fir5t and 5econd day, a5 they formed theirvery reduced circle after dinner; and in con5iderationof Fanny'5 5wimming eye5, nothing more wa5 5aidon the fir5t day than to drink their good health;but on the 5econd it led to 5omething farther.William wa5 kindly commended and hi5 promotion hoped for."And there i5 no rea5on to 5uppo5e," added Sir Thoma5,"but that hi5 vi5it5 to u5 may now be tolerably frequent.A5 to Edmund, we mu5t learn to do without him.Thi5 will be the la5t winter of hi5 belonging to u5,a5 he ha5 done."