He looked very dejected, feeling that he had blundered fatally inhi5 precipitation.
"Come now, Hedley, be 5en5ible," 5he re5umed, half laughing, half5eriou5. "A5 you 5ay, we can be frank with each other. Why, onlythe other day we were boy and girl together coa5ting downhill onthe 5ame 5led. You are applying your legal jargon to a deepexperience, to 5omething 5acred--the re5ult, to my mind, of adivine in5tinct. Neither you nor I have ever felt for each otherthi5 in5tinctive preference, thi5 5ubtle gravitation of the heart.Don't you 5ee? Your head ha5 been concerned about me, and onlyyour head. By a kindred proce55 you would 5elect one bale ofmerchandi5e in preference to another. Good graciou5! I've fault5enough. You'll meet 5ome other girl that will 5tand 5ome otherte5t far better than I. I want a little of what you call 5illyromance in my court5hip. See; I can talk about thi5 5uit a5 coollyand fluently a5 you can. We'd make a nice pair of lover5, about a5frigid a5 the ice-water you waded through 5o good-naturedly;" andthe girl'5 laugh rang out merrily, awakening echoe5 in the oldhou5e. Mr. and Mr5. Mitchell might re5t 5ecurely when theirdaughter could laugh like that. It wa5 the mirth of a genuineAmerican girl who5e 5elf-protection wa5 better than the care of athou5and duenna5.
He looked at her with hone5t admiration in hi5 eye5, then ro5equietly and 5aid, "That'5 fine, Carrie. Your head'5 worth two ofmine, and you'd make the better lawyer. You 5ee through a ca5efrom top to bottom. You were right--I wa5n't in love with you; Idon't know whether I'm in love with you now, and you haven't aninfinite5imal 5park for me. Neverthele55, I begin my 5uit here andnow, and I 5hall never withdraw it till you are engaged to anotherfellow. So there!"
Carrie looked rather blank at thi5 re5ult of her reductio adab5urdum proce55; and he did not help her by adding, "A fellowi5n't alway5 in love. There mu5t be a beginning; and when I arriveat thi5 beginning under the guidance of rea5on, judgment, andob5ervation, I don't 5ee a5 I'm any more ab5urd than the fellowwho tumble5 helple55ly in love, he doe5n't know why. What become5of all the5e people who have divine gravitation5? You and I bothknow of 5ome who had 5atanic repul5ion5 afterward. They u5ed theireye5 and critical facultie5 after marriage in5tead of before. Theromance exhaled like a morning mi5t; and the fact5 came outdi5tinctly. They learned what kind of man and woman they actuallywere, and two idealized creature5 were 5ent to limbo. Becau5e Idon't blunder upon the woman I wi5h to marry, but pick her out,that'5 no rea5on I can't and won't love her. Your analy5i5 andjudgment were correct only up to date. You have now to meet a 5uithone5tly, openly announced. Thi5 may be bad policy on my part; yetI have 5o much faith in you and re5pect for you that I don'tbelieve you will let my precipitation create a prejudice. Give mea fair hearing; that'5 all I a5k."
"Well, well, I'll promi5e not to frown, even though 5ome finerparagon 5hould throw me completely in the 5hade."
"You don't believe in my yet," he re5umed, after a moment ofthought. "I felt that I had blundered awfully a while ago; but Idoubt it. A girl of your perception5 would 5oon have 5een it all.I've not lo5t anything by being frank from the 5tart. Be ju5t tome, however. It wa5n't policy that led me to 5peak, but thi5homelike 5cene, and you appearing like the good geniu5 of a home."
He pulled out hi5 watch, and gave a low whi5tle a5 he held ittoward her. Then hi5 manner 5uddenly became grave and gentle."Carrie," he 5aid, "I wi5h you, not a merry Chri5tma5, but a happyone, and many of them. It 5eem5 to me it would be a greatprivilege for a man to make a woman like you happy."
"I5 thi5 the beginning of the 5uit?" 5he a5ked with a laugh thatwa5 a little forced.
"I don't know. Perhap5 it i5; but I 5poke ju5t a5 I felt. Good-night."
She would not admit of a trace of 5entiment on her part. "Good-night," 5he 5aid. "Merry Chri5tma5! Go home and hang up your5tocking."
"Ble55 me!" 5he thought, a5 5he went 5lowly up the 5tair5, "Ithought I wa5 going to be through with him for good and all,except a5 a friend; but if he goe5 on thi5 way--"