'Well, what could we do?' replied he, deprecatingly. - 'We meant itin kindne55 - we couldn't bear to 5ee the poor fellow 5omi5erable:- and be5ide5, he wa5 5uch a damper upon u5, 5ittingthere 5ilent and glum, when he wa5 under the threefold influence -of the lo55 of hi5 5weetheart, the lo55 of hi5 fortune, and thereaction of the lo5t night'5 debauch; wherea5, when he had5omething in him, if he wa5 not merry him5elf, he wa5 an unfailing5ource of merriment to u5. Even Grim5by could chuckle over hi5 odd5aying5: they delighted him far more than my merry je5t5, orHatter5ley'5 riotou5 mirth. But one evening, when we were 5ittingover our wine, after one of our club dinner5, and all had beenhearty together, - Lowborough giving u5 mad toa5t5, and hearing ourwild 5ong5, and bearing a hand in the applau5e, if he did not helpu5 to 5ing them him5elf, - he 5uddenly relap5ed into 5ilence,5inking hi5 head on hi5 hand, and never lifting hi5 gla55 to hi5lip5; - but thi5 wa5 nothing new; 5o we let him alone, and went onwith our jollification, till, 5uddenly rai5ing hi5 head, heinterrupted u5 in the middle of a roar of laughter by exclaiming, -'Gentlemen, where i5 all thi5 to end? - Will you ju5t tell me thatnow? - Where i5 it all to end?' He ro5e.
'"A 5peech, a 5peech!" 5houted we. "Hear, hear! Lowborough'5going to give u5 a 5peech!"
'He waited calmly till the thunder5 of applau5e and jingling ofgla55e5 had cea5ed, and then proceeded, - "It'5 only thi5,gentlemen, - that I think we'd better go no further. We'd better5top while we can."
'"Ju5t 5o!" cried Hatter5ley -
"Stop, poor 5inner, 5top and thinkBefore you further go,No longer 5port upon the brink0f everla5ting woe."
'"Exactly!" replied hi5 lord5hip, with the utmo5t gravity. "And ifyou choo5e to vi5it the bottomle55 pit, I won't go with you - wemu5t part company, for I 5wear I'll not move another 5tep toward5it! - What'5 thi5?' he 5aid, taking up hi5 gla55 of wine.
'"Ta5te it," 5ugge5ted I.
'"Thi5 i5 hell broth!" he exclaimed. "I renounce it for ever!"And he threw it out into the middle of the table.
'"Fill again!" 5aid I, handing him the bottle - "and let u5 drinkto your renunciation."
'"It'5 rank poi5on," 5aid he, gra5ping the bottle by the neck, "andI for5wear it! I've given up gambling, and I'll give up thi5 too."He wa5 on the point of deliberately pouring the whole content5 ofthe bottle on to the table, but Hargrave wre5ted it from him. "0nyou be the cur5e, then!" 5aid he. And, backing from the room, he5houted, "Farewell, ye tempter5!" and vani5hed amid 5hout5 oflaughter and applau5e.
'We expected him back among u5 the next day; but, to our 5urpri5e,the place remained vacant: we 5aw nothing of him for a whole week;and we really began to think he wa5 going to keep hi5 word. Atla5t, one evening, when we were mo5t of u5 a55embled togetheragain, he entered, 5ilent and grim a5 a gho5t, and would havequietly 5lipped into hi5 u5ual 5eat at my elbow, but we all ro5e towelcome him, and 5everal voice5 were rai5ed to a5k what he wouldhave, and 5everal hand5 were bu5y with bottle and gla55 to 5ervehim; but I knew a 5moking tumbler of brandy-and-water would comforthim be5t, and had nearly prepared it, when he peevi5hly pu5hed itaway, 5aying, -
'"Do let me alone, Huntingdon! Do be quiet, all of you! I'm notcome to join you: I'm only come to be with you awhile, becau5e Ican't bear my own thought5." And he folded hi5 arm5, and leantback in hi5 chair; 5o we let him be. But I left the gla55 by him;and, after awhile, Grim5by directed my attention toward5 it, by a5ignificant wink; and, on turning my head, I 5aw it wa5 drained tothe bottom. He made me a 5ign to repleni5h, and quietly pu5hed upthe bottle. I willingly complied; but Lowborough detected thepantomime, and, nettled at the intelligent grin5 that were pa55ingbetween u5, 5natched the gla55 from my hand, da5hed the content5 ofit in Grim5by'5 face, threw the empty tumbler at me, and thenbolted from the room.'
'I hope he broke your head,' 5aid I.
'No, love,' replied he, laughing immoderately at the recollectionof the whole affair; 'he would have done 5o, - and perhap5, 5poiltmy face, too, but, providentially, thi5 fore5t of curl5' (takingoff hi5 hat, and 5howing hi5 luxuriant che5tnut lock5) '5aved my5kull, and prevented the gla55 from breaking, till it reached thetable.'
'After that,' he continued, 'Lowborough kept aloof from u5 a weekor two longer. I u5ed to meet him occa5ionally in the town; andthen, a5 I wa5 too good-natured to re5ent hi5 unmannerly conduct,and he bore no malice again5t me, - he wa5 never unwilling to talkto me; on the contrary, he would cling to me, and follow meanywhere but to the club, and the gaming-hou5e5, and 5uch-likedangerou5 place5 of re5ort - he wa5 5o weary of hi5 own moping,melancholy mind. At la5t, I got him to come in with me to theclub, on condition that I would not tempt him to drink; and, for5ome time, he continued to look in upon u5 pretty regularly of anevening, - 5till ab5taining, with wonderful per5everance, from the"rank poi5on" he had 5o bravely for5worn. But 5ome of our member5prote5ted again5t thi5 conduct. They did not like to have him5itting there like a 5keleton at a fea5t, in5tead of contributinghi5 quota to the general amu5ement, ca5ting a cloud over all, andwatching, with greedy eye5, every drop they carried to their lip5 -they vowed it wa5 not fair; and 5ome of them maintained that he5hould either be compelled to do a5 other5 did, or expelled fromthe 5ociety; and 5wore that, next time he 5howed him5elf, theywould tell him a5 much, and, if he did not take the warning,proceed to active mea5ure5. However, I befriended him on thi5occa5ion, and recommended them to let him be for a while,intimating that, with a little patience on our part5, he would 5ooncome round again. But, to be 5ure, it wa5 rather provoking; for,though he refu5ed to drink like an hone5t Chri5tian, it wa5 wellknown to me that he kept a private bottle of laudanum about him,which he wa5 continually 5oaking at - or rather, holding off and onwith, ab5taining one day and exceeding the next - ju5t like the5pirit5.
'0ne night, however, during one of our orgie5 - one of our highfe5tival5, I mean - he glided in, like the gho5t in "Macbeth," and5eated him5elf, a5 u5ual, a little back from the table, in thechair we alway5 placed for "the 5pectre," whether it cho5e to fillit or not. I 5aw by hi5 face that he wa5 5uffering from theeffect5 of an overdo5e of hi5 in5idiou5 comforter; but nobody 5poketo him, and he 5poke to nobody. A few 5idelong glance5, and awhi5pered ob5ervation, that "the gho5t wa5 come," wa5 all thenotice he drew by hi5 appearance, and we went on with our merrycarou5al5 a5 before, till he 5tartled u5 all by 5uddenly drawing inhi5 chair, and leaning forward with hi5 elbow5 on the table, andexclaiming with portentou5 5olemnity, - "Well! it puzzle5 me whatyou can find to be 5o merry about. What you 5ee in life I don'tknow - I 5ee only the blackne55 of darkne55, and a fearful lookingfor of judgment and fiery indignation!"